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So, we went on a date. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! First things first, tell me how can you love someone so much that it feels like there is no extent stopping you from loving them more?! Whatever adjectives would describe me the happiest in the world, I am all those. Because I am with him. (Yayayayya) One moment we were holding hands and the other I was resting my head on his shoulder as I were viewing a beautiful sunset. But to be honest, even the simple sage green café felt like it was adorned with jewels. But again, did I even see the walls of the café for more than one minute? No. As we hugged, I looped my hands around his neck and he looped his, around my waist and slightly pulled me closer, more into him. Butterflies . - And somehow this is not a book scene narration. ARGHHHHHH! I quite and all hope that we spend more dates just doing our thing, and pouring each other with love because, why not. But I just know that I am never not going to bring this specific one up in random conve...

  You know how people wish upon stars. May it be for something small or big. For some reason, I never did that. So tell me why my first instinct was to wish a 'till life exists', upon the north star when I saw it. Yes, I am long gone in love. Down bad, in the depths of the ocean, in the mysteries of hells and heavens, whatever you call it. I am all that. Every time I am about to fall, he tells me to walk slow and not fall, but how do I tell him, that the physical hurt will never affect more than how bad I fallen for him. And some how that would be the safest place to be in. I craved for love once. A typical people pleaser thing to do. But now that I am loved by someone, the proximity feels divine.  Even an unintentional arm graze makes me want to hide because the heat feels too real. Not that I fear real, but with him, real feels too surreal to exist. All mythical but just that it is happening. In real time. It has already been more than a month and I don't know if I should...